plz pray

mood: saddish

it doesnt look that way but I haven't been happy,
when I`m around friends I dont think about my problems much and am happy
but the thing is I dont c my friends here as often as I`d like.
1st of all I am always so tyred because I am almost always at school! (mo. from 8.30 to 5.00 tu. from 8.30 to 6.45 we. from 8.30 to 12.45 -that one is the nice day- th. from 8.30 to 6.45 fr. from 8.30 to 1.30 but then I gotta go back 2 school at 5.00, thank god I dont have saturday's like I did in italy!!!) and what makes things worse is that I really dont like my school and dont really have any good friends there......so I am almost all day at a place that I dont like and were I am almost always alone!!! and I dont think I`m a person who likes 2 complain a lot, and I`m a person who always tryes 2 make the best of things, but I dont know how 2 make the best of this! the only good thing is the fact that I`m learning portuguese!!! 2nd thing is that I've been wanting 2 have a closer relationship with god and wanting 2 hear his voice and have some experiences with him........but nothing heppenes! I just feel like I believe in god...but I dont know god! I've always though I did.....but hearing other ppl talk I've realized I dont, I`ve prayed about it sooooo much! I pray about it all the time......but nothing has happened yet! anyway, plz pray for me about all of these things!!!! I hate not feeling happy and feeling lonely! (At school)

and thanks soooo much 2 anybody who might have been praying for me!!!! I really appreciate it!!!!

but something good has happened at school :) and I really hope it will be a spark for a friendship but I dont know if it will, on friday I was at school and I have 2 hours where I dont have anything cuz my class has grammer and not knowing poruguese perfectly yet I dont need 2 go 2 those classes, so I was just walking around and I saw this guy who is a new guy in r class, so I did what I would have wanted people from my class 2 do when I was new in the class: I went 2 talk 2 him!! (in portuguese :) )
so I asked him y he wasnt in class and he said he came late and was just going 2 wait for the next class, so then I told him I`m not going cuz I`m italian/american then he told me my portuguese is really good ^^ hehe and so we talked for a wile, and he was really nice :)
hope we become friends.....that would be nice!
he has a really hard name! I dont know how 2 wright it but its really hard 2 say :O hehe

anyway thanks for reading this if you did, and if you read the hole thing :) and thank u thank u thank u if u decided u will pray for me :)

I want 2 go back tho!

mood: happy!

Ok, so about a week ago I went 2 italy for 4 days! it was really really nice!!!! :D I was so happy 2 finally spend some time with my friends! a friend from Milano came 2 c me wile I was there, so that was really cool! :D
I also met 2 new ppl! a guy named Danny who I had talked 2 on msn before coming 2 italy, because he is a friend of my friends. he is really cool ;) and now is a friend of mine 2 :D hehe and then I met one of my friend`s boy-friend. he was pretty cool 2, even tho he had some ideas I really dont agree with, but sept for that he was really nice! :) its nice, cuz when u r with good friends even if u went away for a long time it feels like u never left! :D it feels so natural 2 be with them :) also I`ve been talking 2 them on the phone every day since I left hehe so, I know everything ;) hehehehe!

Then yesterday I went 2 Lisbon with Marcia,Junior,Jarred and Eddy, Eddy and Jarred are staying over at r house 2 work on the practice room :)
anyway, it was nice 2 go 2 Lisbon! I really like it, and before we went there it was really crazy cuz this drunk guy came on the train and started screaming all these things and acting crazy :O hehe.....I wasnt ready for something like that early in the morning xD hehe anyway then going around Lisbon we met this guy from italy :D he was a photografer selling his pictures on the street, and he was really nice, we talked 2 him (a mix of my italian,Jarred`s American and Marcia`s English) for a wile and then he said he would give us a pic 4 free cuz we were really nice :) hehe,

then then then, I think thats all thats been going on! and: caution, u might get jealous if ur living in a cold place....
2day it felt like summer!!!!!!! I was wearing no sleeves!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D hehehehe
anyway, talk 2 you later everyone!!!
hugs