got here

mood: sad and kinda sick

how I hate having 2 stay in the car for 2 days!!!! 28 hours in the car! GAK!! well I shoudnt complain! my dad had 2 drive all night! anyway, we got here fine, poor Tummy though! he was in the cage all the time! but he did fine, he didnt complain as much as I thought he would.......poor baby!
and now he hast 2 stay up in a room all alone because there are 3 dogs down here! y 3 dogs? cuz were at the farmers place (some friends of ares, cuz some ppl are still cleaning are house, so we cant move in yet, were moving in 2morrow!) and they have a dog, and there is are dog, and THEN yesterday a little puppy dog....(I think he is a puppy, he`s a Jack-russell so he`s small anyway) followed Paula (Mother/Wife Farmer hehehe) here, he is so cute! his name is Soja! he has a dog tag (Were it said his name and his phone number) so we called but there was no1 home so Paula left a messege telling them we found there dog and 2 call back......but this happened yesterday night.....and they didnt call back yet! poor Bingo though (the family`s dog) he is really Jealous!!!!!!!!!!! he attacked Soja 2 times! but Soja is kinda looking for it he keeps running up 2 him! hehe, its so funny how little dogs always bother big dogs!!!!! (Bingo is a BIG dog! but he is soooo sweet! I love him!) haha look at me I just moved in to Portugal and all I talck about is the animals! obviously I`m still sad about it.....but I`m trying really hard to not think about it!I keep thinking this is a vacation and I will be back soon. When we got here yesteday we had 2 unload in the rain!!!!!! it was pouring so hard!!!!! I told my mom I think the weather is reflecting the way I feel...so she said 2 get happy soon......hehe.......but we had help, some friends of ares helped + David and Franco, David is Laura and Carmen`s (2 of my best friends) dad and Franco is there Grandpa, they drove the truck here and 2day are driving back, they were such a blessing! I will miss David 2....he told me he would miss having me at there house every day :') and I told him I would really miss being there every day!!!!!!!!! anyway, Eden and Isaac were keeping my mind busy yesterday night so that I stopped thinking about how sad I was for a wile! Eden is the little girl Farmer! hehe she's 11......I think! I really like her, (I really like kids ;) ) and she is a good friend of Isaac`s! yesterday night they asked me too help them come up with a play they could do! hehe, so I did, and they really liked it.....only I played my part "too well" so instead of wanting Noah (the little boy Farmen, who is 9 or 10) they want me in the play!

Its so cool, last night I slept in the prayer room,and wile I was in that room I started feeling better, I mean I have been crying like every night in these days, and I didnt cry......:) and I prayed that I will not loose my friends and 2 make me feel a little better about living here.....I just....the thing that scares me the most is that something will change in my friend-ship with my friends, like that since I am far away and there always 2ghether, that they will be all better friends and I`ll just be "that friend that lives in portugal..." I dunno....I just hope that doesnt happen!!!!!.....anyway,hugs 2 u all! love u! and thanks u 2 anyone that has been or is praying for me! I really appreciate it! :)

mood: sad sad sad sad!

I cant stop crying......I just got back from spending the night with the girls! they were so sweet! they gave me a belt and some black and white striped socks and some chocolates.....we ate pizza and watched a movie.....than they wanted too go 2 laura and carmens house, I though it would be better if we stayed at my house but they wanted to go there so than they had 2 say bye 2 everyone (my mom my dad and Isaac) so they started crying......and than they started crying for me.....so I started crying.....than we got there and Giuditta went in laura and carmens room, and I wanted to go with her but Carmen kept telling me to wait for her.....so then we all went in the bedroom and Giudy was holding this BIG poster with all of are pictures!!!!!!!!!!!! and they rote a bunch of nice things around them! then they all read me a letter they had wrote! :'( :'( I havent cryed this much in such a long time!!!!!!!!!


please pray for me......

5:00 pm

mood: sadly-bored

uuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaggggggghhhhh! I`m bored.....its 5:00 pm......and no one is here......cuz one of my friends house flooded......and for some reason......my other friends need 2 wait for her :/ and I asked if I can come there and they said "no! we will be there soon" that was a wile ago tho.......I`M SO BOREDDDDDDD!!!!!!! :( well.....at least were going out 2night 2, cuz if I could only see them in the day I would be pretty bummed!!!!!!!!! since like all the day is gone already! I mean at this point if its because of "the surprise" that there taking so long than I would have preffered no surprise cuz I just want 2 hang out with them as much as possible before we go!!!!!!!!!!! jffjkfdsjsljkfdsskljsdfkljskldfklldsfkldfsklflkdfkldflkkdsfklfkldskldskldsklsdkl
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yeaaaaap......ok bye bye

the weather 2day reflects the way I feel

mood: sad......really sad.....

its raining 2day.....and its really cold!!! and it doesnt help the way I feel right now......I really cant belive we are moving 2morrow!!! I will haft 2 say bye 2 all of my italian friends 2day :( :( :( :( :( :( I hate good-byes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( :( my friends should be coming over soon......I know there planning something for 2day cuz they`ve made it pretty obvious....hehe......fist off they were talcking about something the other day and I said what? and they were like "oh nothing!" and carmen smiled at me, than I heard carmen wispering to Giuditta "so when should I give it 2 her? the last day?" and than just now I called Sara and she was like "yeah were going 2 come over but first me and Giudy are meeting at Laura and Carmen's house, than we will all come over," and sara lives right next 2 my house so there would be no reason for her to go all the way to there house first...lol....anyway, hope that whatever the surprise is it cheeres me up a bit!

mood: relieved!

all is good! :) we talcked and she said she was sorry but she would act that way cuz she didnt want 2 think about me leaving cuz she felt so bad about it.

wish I didnt feel this way....

mood: worried!

ok, so there is this friend of mine,right?, and she has been acting really weird lately.......like whenever we talck about me leaving she gets this "I dont care" tone and acts like she doesnt care or anything......and the weirdest thing is that she was the one who seemed saddest about the fact I was leaving in the first place.....:-/ I mean I know she DOES care I`m leaving and stuff but I dont understand y she acts that way now,and its not only that she even kinda ignores me when its all of us 2ghether.........its weird........anyway,I rote her an e-mail telling her how I felt about all this but I know how she gets she probably will start saying "this is so stupid! and not true! I cant believe u think that" and stuff like that.....so I`m hoping she wont act like that and understand how I feel....I mean it might be just an impression of mine anyways cuz I`m really sad about leaving and stuff....I dunno!!!!!! I just hope she doesnt act the way I think she will!!!!! oh well....if she does I`ll just tell her "never-mind it was just and impression then..." but I think it was good I told her how I felt even if maibe she ends up thinking I worry 2much.......

hanging out with my buddyes :)

mood: ok

last night I went out with some of my friends, we walcked around salo` and found a guy a friend of mine likes and asked him if he will go out with her....hehe....cuz she has been bugging us about asking him for a loooooong time, so he said yes, hehe, yey! she will have her first boy-friend (maibe) :) :) :) I cant wait 2 tell her, hehe!

anyway, than me and Sara (one of my friends I was out with) went 2 sleep over at my other friends house,Giuditta,and we watched a movie.......that sucked cuz it made no sense at all! hehe! but oh well, than me and Sara had 2 sleep on the same bed....:-/ it was very uncomfortable!!!!!!! and she kept stealing the blanket from me and pushed me off once....:-/ hehehehe! anyway, it was fun, than in these days I`m going 2 go for dinner at all my best friends house! so that will be cool! :) :) :) I just wish that when I`m with my friends I could enjoy myself more and stop thinking about how much I`m going 2 miss them!!!!!!!!!!! I hate feeling sad! :( :( :( :( :( oh well......u cant controll what ur feeling.......!

draw on me! lol

mood:hungry!!!!!!!

hey! hows it going yall? hehe!
I cant believe I`m moving in 8 days!!! sorry if its all I right about! I know it probably gets boring! (even tho hardly any1 is reading my blog....hehe) but its so hard for me....even the fact that I`m the only one of my family that isnt happy about it.....it kinda makes it harder.....not that I would want anyone of them 2 be un-happy......its just when I get there EVERYONE will be happy....sept for me......and I dunno.....it makes it a little harder.....anyway,I changed my hair again! hehe! now my bangs are blue and the rest is purple!!! :D :D :D its cool! I like it!!!!!! well, gotta go! byeeeeeeeeeeeeeez

mood: happy :)
yey! hehe, I`m here with my friends there sleeping over 2day! it will be fun! were all going 2 watch a movie (the exsorsim of emily rose, one of my friends picket the movie.....and the rest of my friends are scared about watching it lol.....exspeccially one of them,giuditta,u can c it from her face in the picture! hahahaha!) and eat pizza *yumm* :) :) :) its the last sleep over we will have tho :( :( :( :( :( so we got 2 make it really fun :) lol everyone is going 2 school 2morrow exsept 4 me mua-ha-ha :P but I`m gonna hafta get up with them at 6 (help hehe) ok,well gotta go my dad wants the computer! bye bye

mood: sad

hey-lo everyone!!!!!!
2day I had 2 say good-bye 2 a friend of mine :( :( and I won't see her b4 I move cuz she lives pretty far!!!! I HATE saying good bye!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( :( :( and I dont even know when next time I c her could be cuz she hardly ever travels!!!!!! than 2day I was in one of my best friend`s room (Carmen`s room) and I was looking at all the pictures of us and stuff and I started feeling really bad and started crying.....than she came in and soul me and hugged me and started crying......so I was crying even more!!!!! wow.....we cryed a lot......hehe....yeah....but I`m ok now....its just REALLY hard for me!!!!!! well I g2g going 2 watch a movie and eat!!!!!
bye byez!!!!!!!

I need a hug!

mood: bored
YEY THIS IS MY FIRST POST ON THIS BLOGGGGG!!!!

SO exiting! hehehe......so nothing special is going on!!!! I`m just bored......my sister Whitney left 2day 2 go 2 the states for a year, and my parents went 2 bring her 2 the air-port and. Isaac (my little brother) is out......so I`m alone at home.....and pretty bored!!!!!!!!! I called my friends but there all doing home-work....and said they would come as soon as there done but there not here yet :( :( :( so I`m just sitting here righting on my computer....cool huh??? yeah....its not that fun when all ur friends have school and u dont.....not that I LIKE school!!!! no way!!!!!! but if my friends are going 2 school that makes them busy!!!!! :( so ur probably wondering y I`m not going 2 school: thats because I`m moving 2 portugal in 2 weeks! I`m not 2 happy about that tho.....I mean yeah: Portugal is REALLY cool!!!!! & I have so great friends there.....but still......I REALLY DONT want 2 leave all my friends here!!!!!! :( :( :( :( :( anyway.....I just called one of my friends and she had fell asleep! lol!!! so she`s coming over.....so I`m going 2 go now......bu-byeeee!!!!